Four wheeled fretting !

This week, for reasons which will soon become apparent, I have had cars on my mind. After some deep thinking, in depth researching and soul searching, I looked back over my history with the automobile and understood why I struggle so much with this particular aspect of my life.
Car 1. The understated, totally reliable, Vauxhall Nova in petrol blue, sold to me, by monthly instalments ( !) to me by one of my best friends....the incredibly generous and fabulous Polly Deep Pockets. I am forever grateful to her for starting me on a road, I could not afford at that time...not sure I am any better off now !It got stolen twice and written off the second time.
Car 2. The gorgeous little white Mazda I bought in Drogheda off a mechanic's wife. I loved that little sporty hatchback and it gave me no trouble. Off I headed with GASP for our first foreign holiday, parking it inside the 8 foot metal gates of the Gate Lodge I inhabited. GASP suggested I should park it further back, but I refused exclaiming " Non one is going to hit that car through 8 foot gates!" They did and wrote it off.
Car 3. The cutie Honda Civic...gave me no trouble. Decided to sell it privately to buy car 4 and on the way to meet a potential buyer, took the side off it on the garage I had been reversing out of for about 6 years....had to pay to have it fixed before then selling it on.
Car 4. BMM's Opel Vectra...a beaut ! Engine went 12 weeks later
Car 5. The Mazda 323. Sensible, comfortable...gave me no trouble...heater went as I had new baby so changed it voluntarily for Car 6....big mistake
Car 6. The Renault Megane.....F**k, P**s, S**T, B*****s....lived in the bloody garage as the "coils" went 6 times ! I hated it having bought it in a bad mood...it made it worse !
Car 7. Finally changed the Renault for the magnificent Peugeot 3008....LOOOOOOVED IT.
Turbo and Engine went in January !!!!!!
Now, in case you think I don't look after my cars, you are most certainly mistaken. I service my car every 12,000 km on the dot, I have replaced timing belts, brake pads, sensors etc.as required and only buy my diesel from a very reputable garage....so why, oh why does this happen to me ????? In January, I had to purchase a car. I looked back over my history and noticed that the only cars who did me no harm were Mazda's , so I bought a Mazda 3 gorgeous Sports version, low mileage , sensible and yet sexy.....problem....the lumbar support so generously supplied in all new cars does not suit my back...I can't sit in it. What appeared like just a firm ride on test drive ( I love a firm one !) turned into torture on a full journey and with great reluctance I had to admit that my apparent sensible decision had turned out to be a disastrous one. You can just imagine GASP's face ! The past 4 weeks have been spent reading reviews online, listening to lots of peoples opinion of what I should do and could do, culminating in my head nearly going on fire with the thoughts occupying it. You see, I really don't want to make another mistake, or have another mistake thrust upon me. This weekend I am test driving, for the whole weekend, the vehicle I think might be the next one for me, as my back loves it. Yes, it's all bells and whistles, yes it's second hand and affordable, yes it's sexy, safe and substantial, but my decision has entirely based on my own comfort in it and nothing else. Make all your choices in life on what feels right....not what looks right, appears right or seems right...it may not work out, but you'll be happy in the meantime........